I don’t mean to be all text-post spammy today (sorry) but anyway here’s another one.

I’m fluctuating (all the time, forever) between feeling a-ok and feeling inconsolable. There are just so many shitty things to dwell on, I guess.

I miss my boyfriend’s little sister (his parents too, but her especially). Ugh, I hate to even think about it because it’s all my fault that I don’t get to see them. She’s so super sweet and cute and she gets all down about herself and I just want to remind her that everything’s going to be ok and that she just needs to have faith in herself and the people that love her. But who am I to be doling out advice like cough syrup? I’m horrible, and I don’t ever follow my own advice anyway. 

I know that you can’t live in the past, and that everything does get better by increments and it’s just a matter of waiting, but it’s just so sad to look back on shit that I regret - especially when I’m still feeling the resulting resonations. 

I get really lonely too. I spend the majority of my time at work and it’s starting to seriously stress me out. Ugh, enough whining. Time to get out of this cafe and visit my wonderful boyfriend (see, I should be happy but instead I’m moping).

Yikes.